I'm an overnight zombie!!

I have started working overnights on the weekends.  I expected to be pretty tired during the weekend but what I did not expect, was that I would feel tired all week long.  Apparently, messing with your wake/sleep cycle can really run a number on your body!  I'll get used to it, no worries there!

I will also admit, I have been eating like crap. I blamed it partially on working over nights but I know it's not really the truth.  I have been a slacker.  That is the truth.  Now, missing a few workouts last month - that is definitely due to being exhausted.  I'm not quite as tired now as I was in the beginning so I'm getting back to the gym again.  This week my daughter has been sick AGAIN, so that means I can't use the daycare at the gym.  Sheesh, talk about having everything against you!

We are getting to the end of the month and the house is really getting low on food.  I'm not going to be able to eat very well until the 1st.  I figured I'd give myself a little break from even THINKING about everything and I'll just start up properly again on the first.  I've been toying with the idea of planning out a week (or maybe a month) of meals ahead of time and shopping for that.  I'm not sure if that will work out for me though.  I am good at making the plan but not so hot at implementing it.  Either way, something has to give.  I need to get back into the routines I was in two years ago when I had so much success.

That leads me to another thing that I know has been hurting me.  Weight watcher's meetings.  I have been weighing in, but not going to meetings.  I KNOW that has been a bad thing for me.  I just need to get my butt there and sit for a meeting.  My problem lies with the fact that I need to weigh in first thing in the morning.  The other problem is that my daughter is no longer agreeable to sitting through a meeting with me.  That means I have to weigh in on one day and go to a meeting on another.  The job makes me feel like I'm missing out on so much at home so weight watchers felt like just one more thing, but I realize it's actually worse for me to miss it than to go to it.

I HAVE been keeping up with my running.  Ever since I lowered the speed to 4.5 I have been doing MUCH better!  It's still hard but not murderous!  I'm up to running for 3 minutes at a time.  I remember when that was such a huge accomplishment for me, now it feels like a big dud. :-)  I just have to get myself back to where I was and then I can feel accomplished again!

So that is the long and short of it.  I've been trying to kick start my butt back into gear but things are not going as well as I had hoped.  I'm just going to have to kick harder!  On the first, I'm going to officially start all over.  I may have said this before, God only knows, but I DO know that I am NOT going to give up.  I might start over time and time again, but the point is, I keep trying. :-)

Have a WONDERFUL day!  Thanks for reading! -Monica